Hayley Williams

Well, you all know I've always been a huge fan of Paramore especially Hayley Williams. I'd marry her if I was a lesbian. She's just too awesome.

Arthur

Arthur and me!

Yay, Laura finally uploaded this picture on Facebook.She came back to Malaysia to visit family and friends, now she's back in London. I missed Arthur : ( Arthur is huge and heavy! His hands are bigger than mine. He's only 6-7 months old. Don't I look motherly right there ; )Man, I hate kids, from the bottom of my heart. They're just plain annoying with all the whining and crying. I don't hate Arthur or my niece tho. I hate those kids who knows how to talk back. I'd break their jaw only if their parents allow me. I still love my niece eventho she cry at times. She used to cry whenever I hold her, back then. But now guess what? I'm her favorite aunt ;] She will stop crying whenever I sang Barney theme song.I don't know why that song. Then she'll start clapping and giggling. Meh, I love her. Just Myra and Arthur :D

STPM

Good Luck to those whose taking their STPM result today. Any of you who are thinking of running away from home, escaping, even killing yourself, you are welcome to consult me. My house is a refugee camp. I also sell noose in case if you want to "hang out".I also provide consultation on ways to kill yourself should it be dramatic, something that people will remember or something low and steady, or stylish.But if you do plan to stay alive and keep fighting, I may have something to share. I guess you're wondering what are you going to do next? Well, if you ask me I really don't know. Hahah. But seriously, do something that you love(Tgk result jugak la) not something that some random assholes decide for you. You see, government is like the devil. They suck everything out of you. They decide what course you should go and sometimes, we agree to go for it because we're too afraid to make our own choices. Or maybe economic factor.So, I urge all of you, to do what you really want to do. Don't even think about the money. We have ptpn. Have the guts to do what you want not what the government or your parents decide for you cuz at the end of the day, you're the one who will suffer if it was the wrong choice, not them. Should you listen to me? No.Pssh! I'm a loser : )

Random

I think almost everyone knows that I'm afraid of butterflies. It's official. They find it's weird to fear a harmless creature such as butterfly. Dude, we all have irrational fear somewhere. It is totally normal to have fears. Nothing weird about fearing butterflies. I got tonnes of reasons...creepy legs, overtly soft wings and the dusts on the wings...the slimy green butterfly blood when you squish them. It's just nasty. I also developed another fear, fear of holes, tiny little holes. It has its own psychological term but I don't really remember.I've only held butterfly, once ,in my life. I was just trying to make a peace with butterfly clan then my cousin squished the poor thing on my hand, leaving the slimy green-ish blood everywhere on my hand. I've also squished a butterfly once, accidentally, when I was walking. Honestly, I didn't see it. Then I spent more then an hour scrubbing my feet with antiseptic germicide and soap. You know what's worse? When I have those huge butterflies floating around my house. I remember 4-5 years back. I went to a camp and this camp had butterflies EVERYWHERE. I remember wearing 3 ply of clothes to protect myself from being touched by butterflies. Then, went back home from the camp. Found 2 huge butterflies floating around in my house. I stayed in my room for 2-3 days until I decided to go brave and chase those pity butterflies out of my house(Yeah, my siblings thought that it was a good humor to see me screaming like a lil' girl, so they decided not to help). Come to think of it, I do think it's funny sometimes. Lol. I put a sweater on, and another 2 ply of shirt inside, put on hoodie, wear gloves and stockings, armed with a broom. I can finally watch tv in peace ; )
I remember when Iba's brother teased me with a moth. He said he have something to show me, I've never thought that it's going to be a moth. I lost my voice for that :/

Everyday, of my life, I have to live with this fear. There's this path that I have to walk through it to get out of my apartment. And that path itself, is like butterflies favorite hang out spot. So, can you imagine how much fear I have to live in? Every single day. I took a picture of it, I'll show you.


Butterflies favorite hang out spot.


Haha, Eff you Percy Jackson

Pictures

What a wonderful day I had today. So, I've studied the whole night, last night for the exam. Then the next morning, I suddenly feel kinda sick-ish, threw up and stuff, an hour before the exam. Wait! The day got better! So I took a cab from the train station to exam center, 15 minutes journey turned to 40 minutes when I got stuck in a traffic. Uber lame traffic. I mean, why now?! You know when you're in a rush and suddenly everything happen at THAT particular time. WTF is wrong with time? Yea so screw my "good day". Was going through all the pictures in my phone,computer and my old myspace account. The pictures from the good old days.


I was bored waiting for Nads-.- Man, i was crazy back then. Dunno if I still am. Missed my long hair tho ; )



I don't remember when was this. Way back then. The clone for L(Death Note) and Ju-on.

This picture is the most epic picture ever. Taken at the National zoo.

I love English and the innuendo ;)

Freedom

Okay, I'm getting too annoyed. My fault for letting people get to me. They're not at fault. They prolly don't even know about it. Some people just know how to promote themself, attention whores... but when they overdo it, believe me, they look more or less like a bimbo. This is excruciating to watch.Well, you know, whatever makes you happy man, just don't drag me into your land of stupidity.Along with Mr *** spamming my formspring with his idiotic yet perverted questions. Enjoy being blocked, creep.
Okay so, freedom? How well do you use it? Believe me, I have all, in fact more freedom than any other normal teens would have (Oh fuck yes I'm still a teenager, punk!) I'm really glad that I get this kind of freedom, to go anywhere I want, to make any decisions I want and etc. Even though I am granted with such freedom, I can still control myself.Maybe you're thinking that we're living a different lifestyle,I'm living alone, my sister is on the same page as us, teens and bla bla bla. No it's not that easy. Lol, you don't know me and you judge me? That's just sad man. Thing is, my sister didn't give the freedom all at once. She learned that, I am getting older and sooner or later, she just have to let me go. The only thing she can do is to prepare myself for life. Believe me, I used to get carried away with the freedom I have. I misused it. Thank goodness my sister was there to snap me out of it( Yea...I feel sorry for her that time) Okay, I'm gonna skip all the great grandfather stories. My point is, when your parents trust you, even with a small thing, don't fucking betray their trust.When they say no, DEAL WITH IT. Learn to accept a no, cuz they know what's good or bad for you. And when they even say no for ridiculous reason, don't blame them cuz you're the one who lied to them and hurt their trust. Stop being a whiny bunch and deal with it. I've seen enough from teens point of view and I've gone deeper into parents point of view. I understand few things. Just because your friends got more freedom than you, doesn't mean you deserve as much freedom as your friends got.

Keyword : Don't betray people's trust.

Have some self control.
Untill then, check yourself before you wreck yourself <3

On the day that I was supposed to study for exams...

Isn't it hot, these days. I've slept with 16 degrees celcius temperature and I can still sweat like hell, even with turbo speed ac. Anyways, I've been moody lately, been treating people real bad lately.Well, I'm sorry I've been such an asshole to you guys. Meh, we all have ups and down and sometimes, we just need a little time to think without having people bombarding us with questions and stuff. I know I can be such a douche when people force me to share my problems, I'm just not a sharing type :/ I have no idea when did this happen,lol. I used to share and whine a lot. But, I know you guys have good intentions. You care. and I can't thank you enough for that, still, I don't like sharing my problems. Please respect that. I don't mind listening to yours:D Scratch that.

I thought my sister was joking about the vacation. She had already booked a ticket for me earlier this morning. Haha, how efficient. This is good, I could use some gate away.

So, we had a visiting lecturer 2-3 weeks ago, Mr. Max, a handsome Italiano. We were all excited when he came but not very excited as he started talking because we couldn't understand a word he's saying. Oh well, who give a fuck about what he's talking about as long as he's standing right there and I sat at the front row ^.^ (I'm not as slutty as it may sound cuz I always sit at the front row, Astigmatism, Hello?:P )

Anyways, I'm excited about a lot of things. First off, Malacca trip this coming March. So soon ^.^

So here's the thing, it was supposed to be educational, but I have no friggin' idea how can shopping and visiting can be educational. More like waste of time and dime. I have class on that day and I'll have to skip it to go to the trip for crying out loud. Dumb reason. On the good note, I also need a break ; ) So I guess this is good. Furthermore, I haven't set my foot at Malacca for ages. Then a friend from a Galaxy far away is coming here around April. We'll, hopefully he will. It's already sound like a plan. After that' I'll be off to Dubai on May. Then back to normal, boring and dysthymic life :[ Despite the plain boring life I have, overall, I don't have a problem with it, or so I thought. I'm pretty much happy with the people I'm surrounded with, near or far. They've been great support to me. Thanks guys. I owe you one.

Whatelse? Umm..oh yea. I got my little toe stuck under the door 2 days ago and now it's HUGE and swollen. This is my first time having my body part swell that huge...and blue? Lol. It's creepy if you can look at it. At first I thought it was totally nothing, cuz' there's nothing weird about me getting bruises and stuff, I'm always clumsy as fuck, but I never though that this time it's gonna be this painful. I might need crutches. Well, no problem,I can get it for free from Ampang Puteri : P

P/S: If you're wondering about the subject for this post, well, I was supposed to study for tomorrow's mid sectionals, but instead I ended up blogging and watching The Lovely Bones. Good movie.